Archive for Ugh Moments

Dog Trainers and The Cobbler’s Children

Wednesday, October 19th, 2011

My hubby and I are entered in an agility trial this weekend over in Yakima. I love this trial and especially love the beautiful fall days that generally accompany these dates as well. Last night as we were headed to dinner, Dan says “I can’t wait to run my dogs this weekend! They’re doing so good!” And you know what? He should be excited because he has two fine working dogs and they’re ready for competition. Me on the other hand…not so much.


As if sensing my thoughts, Dan says “You’re excited too…right?”


Well, the truth is, I’m not excited and I decide to carefully say so (after all, I don’t want to burst his bubble). Being the caring man Dan is, he asks “Why not?” and I truthfully say “Because I’ve been so busy with other things,” (moving into the new building, judging, meeting judging deadlines, working on a few new training projects and more) “that I don’t feel like my dogs have received the training time needed to go in to competition.”


It’s like the old story of the cobbler’s children who have no shoes…isn’t it ironic that the dog trainer’s dogs aren’t trained?


So, the situation is what it is and now I need to decide (ahead of time) how I’m going to handle it. Keeping a sense of humor is important,

  • So first, I’m doing the obvious thing which is to cram all the training I can get in over the next 2 days. While this method NEVER worked in the past, there’s always hope it will work this ONE time.
  • Second (and being serious for just a moment), I have to be prepared, which means I’m not going to blame my dogs for my lack of training.
  • Third, if I’m embarrassed by what happens well, I’ll either plan and train more in the future or
  • I’ll talk myself into…err, um…I mean accept the fact that I’m a human with a full and rich life outside of agility <g>
  • Next, I’ll reassure myself that my dog’s lives are not negatively impacted by this one single event and;
  • Instead realize that it’s only my ego and competitive nature that’s really taking the hit here <g>

Well, now that I’ve talked about ‘worse case scenario’, it has dawned on me that this isn’t such a terrible ‘bad’. I mean even if I have horrific runs with my dogs, I’ll still go back to the RV and love on ‘em and enjoy their company. I’ll still BBQ with my friends, I’ll still camp under the stars (the bonus of having an RV) and of course my dogs will still be tormented with loads and loads of kisses.


After all, winning is nice, but it’s secondary to making and achieving that special moment with your dog. In this case, I’m going to focus on great obstacle performance (minus the weaves where I’m playing around with a few training methods), fun, criteria and playing. Now that’s a goal I can get behind and be excited about.


Happy Handling Everyone!

 

Lisa

 

This blog post continues with the ‘after trial’ recap HERE.

 

The Power of Dog – Ryder (aka Boo)

Monday, September 27th, 2010

Every day is a lesson. Sometimes they are good lessons and sometimes they are heartbreaking.

Today my friend’s, Katie and Andy, lost their young Golden Retriever to a blood-type of disorder. For the average human reading this, some may wonder how the loss of a dog is blog-worthy. For those of us who are into dog sports, they understand without another word. But regardless of which side of the fence you’re from, this blog subject is worth the read because it talks about the power of love and the power of dog.

It’s no surprise that dog folks often equate their 4-legged kids with 2-legged human children. Today it dawned on me why this analogy is so correct!

When people have human babies, they put time, energy and a part of themselves into that little life. They teach them, shape them, impart information, create their world, oversee the life lessons that are a part of growing up and open the deepest parts of their soul to share a vulnerable side reserved only for special individuals. Human parents do all of this with care, thoughtfulness and with a relish for this labor of love.

It may be hard to imagine, but dog parents do the same for their 4-legged youngsters. While we don’t give birth to our chosen young, just like those who adopt, we look into that little sweet face and fall in love. A maternal/paternal instinct kicks in. Maybe it’s the want to care for the innocent or maybe it’s just the need to develop a bond with something warm, interactive and emotionally stimulating. Whatever the reason, the 4-legged surrogate children worm their way into our hearts and become members of the family.

This brings me back to Katie and Andy. Today they lost one of their kids and at the moment there is a place in their heart that is aching, empty and pleading for their beloved Boo to come back to them. While this is the hard side of loving and loosing, we have to remind ourselves to never lose sight of how it felt while our dogs are with us. Forgetting the time together would an injustice to the one who touched our heart and it would negate the love they brought into our lives.

 

In the case of Boo (also known as Ryder), he was amazing. I didn’t get to see him on a daily basis, but what I noticed immediately was that he brought pure joy to Katie and Andy’s life. He made them smile. He worked the two of them by pouring on the puppy love, adding a full-bodied tail wag and a look that said “I love you so much”. They couldn’t help but shower him with kisses, hugs and smiles. From my vantage point, I’m certain these warm feelings poured over into their marriage and that it brought the two of them closer as a couple. They smiled and laughed together over Boo and his antics and those happy feelings overflowed and was shared among their friends.

Boo’s reach was far beyond his immediate family. While judging him in agility, I couldn’t help but smile and root him on. He gave his all in each agility performance and was a force of good that swept through the course. Nobody could resist the happiness watching him brought!

But what I’ll remember most was the whirl of energy Boo and his handler (it didn’t matter if it was Katie or Andy) produced. They were like a micro-burst of fun on the agility course. It started the moment they came to the line and the impact continued even after they were gone. Dan (my hubby) and I would see them hours later and smiles would still be plastered on all of their faces (humans and dogs alike). It was infectious and a feeling that sucked us in. That’s how we became friends with them, in part, thanks to Boo.

So while Katie and Andy work through their grief, I wanted to salute Boo for having touched so many lives in such an amazingly positive way. He did touch many hearts and he brought joy to everyone who watched. He was amazing to see, lovable to all and so very special. I know that we are all better humans for having known that 4-legged little fuzz ball of joy.

Thank you Boo for sharing your gift with all of us and our hearts are with Katie and Andy during this time.

With Love,

Lisa & Dan

Technology and Dog Poop, Not a Suggested Combo

Wednesday, September 8th, 2010

Long ago I decided that challenging situation are best looked at as future stories to share and laugh over with friends. Today was certainly no exception!

I’ve been working hard to finish up editing my 2on-2off Contact DVD and the last two days have been priceless. Clearly my time in the Alaskan brush did me some good and I came back refreshed and surging with energy. I stayed up late last night and then got up early to finish up the project. Then the Windows update hit and dang if it didn’t just wig out my computer…and my DVD file (and back ups), which magically reverted back to copies dated Aug 27th.
Ah yeah, that means the last week of work is GONE! I’ve been on the phone with almost everyone and have come to the conclusion that my beautiful DVD now needs to be recreated.  The good news is I have all of the little pieces and know which order they go in, so off to work I go…again!
But that’s no the funny part. The funny part is that as I’m calmly trying to figure out which limb I can sell/offer/sacrifice in hopes that my beloved file will magically appear, I blindly plunk myself on the couch to ponder my options. 

It wasn’t but a few moments later I realize that I was sitting on something hard. Assuming it is a dog bone (this does happen often in my home), I go to grab it and alarmingly realize it’s a turd. Yeah, the kind that falls out of my old dog’s butt more and more often these days. Just when I’m thinking the situation couldn’t get worse, I have to face the reality that I’m sitting in doggy poop.

Looking back, I guess my first clue to the hidden land mine was when I thought “Oh goody! There’s an open spot on the couch for me!” With five dogs, that’s a rarity and I now realize the dogs were avoiding the area (In my defense, the turd was hidden in a multi-colored blanket).
So, the moral of the story is that it was going to be a sh*t day, no matter what! Oh, and always check the blanket before sitting down.
Lisa
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Does This Magazine Make Me Look Fat?

Tuesday, July 13th, 2010

Today was not my day for beauty and no amount of inner glow was going to make me feel better about the hair that was stuck to my head.

I had a little snafu yesterday in what should have been a simple color touch-up. For those that know me, I love to play with hair color. Sometimes a little touch of red, sometimes a few blonde highlights. Just depends on what the mood is.

It’s summer and I’ve decided to move lighter in the shades and found a color with highlights I just love. While multi-tasking yesterday, I inadvertently grabbed my winter hair color. No problem, after it was done I just grabbed my summer hair color and then did the highlights. But thanks to the varying base colors now in my hair, the highlights didn’t turn out like they should have. So I thought I could just start over with the lighter base color.

As I’ve now found out, the more color you add (even lighter colors), the darker your hair becomes. By morning, my hair was just about jet black and definitely NOT what I was hoping for. So off to the salon I head so I can pay someone to get me into the hair color I had when I woke up yesterday morning.

So when I entered the salon in my baggy pants, loose t-shirt, zero make-up and hair that I wasn’t feeling the love for, I wasn’t feeling all pretty-like. Hell, I couldn’t have faked it if my life depended on it! To make matters worse, while waiting for my hair-savior (stylist) I opened up one of those hip fashion magazines. There staring back at me were tall, skinny, young models with perfectly colored hair, beautiful spiked heals and wearing the latest and greatest in clothing that is well-above the Kohl’s price range I normally shop in.

To add insult to injury, they didn’t have a single piece of dog hair weaved into their fancy clothing (in contrast to my life-style which means I’m always accompanied by dog hair of all colors).

In my hair-weakened state, I found myself thinking “I want to be that skinny”, “I want my hair done up like that”, “oh those dreamy shoes” and all kinds of envious stuff. Even the Venus razor ad with her beautiful legs had me turning green.

And then I found myself mentally calculating all of my flaws. I hadn’t shaved my legs since Saturday. There was no way my practical feet were going to stand 20 minutes in those 5″ heels. The hair was a completely lost cause and this 5’2″ vertically challenged girl was never going to have long, tall, lean legs no matter how hard I worked out or how long I stayed on a stretching rack.

Now tell me again why we have these magazines that feature fake people, shown in borrowed homes, wearing clothing with price tags that add up to a house payment, in hairstyles that require 10 pounds of hair product and a small monthly loan just to afford them?

Dang it, I almost fell for the marketing machine techniques which tell me that if I buy Product X, Y and Z, I’ll have everything I never knew I was missing. Luckily I put the magazine down. I confidently walked over to my SuperCuts salon gal who is a treasure (Yes, I’ll admit that I used to go to a top-notch salon and pay almost $200 for a cut & color). My gal worked her magic and by the time I walked out of there (with a brow wax to boot!), I was feeling pretty, pretty, pretty! Hell, I even came home and threw on a little make-up to go teach my dog classes.

As an added bonus to my now normal base color, I have some wicked blonde highlights that lighten up my mood as well as my hair. I have to say, I’m feeling the spark again and I’ve vowed NOT to open up one of the damned magazines again! Those things are BAD for your health!

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Why Go Public? PSLRA

Thursday, January 7th, 2010

I’ve been asked “Why a public approach?” to our resignation from PSLRA. Here’s why:

It wasn’t with the intent to promote a rift or to tear the club a part (which we firmly believe will NOT happen), but instead to promote change. Dan and I tried, repeatedly over the years to participate, to work with the club (i.e. the Board) and to create a positive experience. At almost every juncture we came face to face with a brick wall, deaf ears, excuses and worse yet, unrelated personal topics thrown in our face.

Rather than view our note as a slam, we hope PSLRA will view it as an opportunity to promote change and to ensure committees follow through and adhere to guidelines like the new Vendor Process (just one example). And NO, this does not mean the club should use Premier K9 Club (my company’s) equipment. Actually, we have indicated we will not be bidding to provide equipment to PSLRA mainly because our interests are moving us in a different direction.

Additionally, this isn’t about Agility. We used Agility as an example because that is the high-budget venue we were most knowledgeable about.

If we had been the only ones who felt as was written, the information would never have gone public. However, we’re not the only ones. Not even close.

I know it’s easy to take these things personally and again, we sincerely apologize for that. Unfortunately, as outsiders who were continuously trying to get information and be included, we found it very difficult and unwelcoming.

I realize I’m taking the fall as the bad guy, but it is not because we are disgruntled and wish ill-will. On the contrary, I think the club will be stronger and better than ever.

It’s been said my blog is highly public and viewed by many, when thinking of the millions of websites & blogs, my little blog is being given way too much credit! : )

Bye-Bye (PSLRA) Puget Sound Labrador Retriever Club

Wednesday, January 6th, 2010
PSLRA

After being an active member for over 10 years, last night my hubby Dan resigned his membership to the PSLRA (Lab Club). I was sad for him because he grew up in the club, supported their events (obedience, agility & hunt tests) and participated whenever possible (Agility Trial Chair and/or Committee Member for several shows and was a shooter at their hunt tests). I should also add that so did both of his parents, Keith & Beth.

Unfortunately, over the last few years he has seen a club develop that as he said “Is no longer family friendly….and fails to foster relationships beyond the core click.” Everyone’s allowed their opinion and by no means does that mean every member falls into this category. On the contrary, the majority of members are WONDERFUL. So hang in there with me while I share some of the behind the scenes things that influenced Dan. I would venture to say the majority of the club has no idea what goes on…
Board Meetings & Minutes
Although Dan and I aren’t able to attend the majority of the Meetings due to our work schedules, we read every word of the published minutes. It was our way of keeping up in a club that we considered ourselves active members of.
So it was a big surprise to us when we noticed that procedures and topics were occurring/being discussed & implemented, but weren’t always properly documented or even mentioned in the meeting minutes. That seemed a bit strange to us so we asked about them, thinking we’d missed something. We received answers like “Not everything has to be reported to the Club Members” and “If you would have attended the meetings in person, you would have known.”
First, the PSLRA membership is spread across the Puget Sound. There are active paying members in Alaska, Idaho, Eastern Washington and more. They, as well as everyone else who is unable to attend each meeting deserves complete & accurate Meeting Minutes.
Second, it is my understanding that the Club status require accurate Meeting Minutes. If you look at the AKC Board of Director Meeting Minutes, it is very clear what business and/or topics have been reviewed. This is not the case with PSLRA’s Meeting Minutes.
Third, as a PAYING club member the Board should have an open door policy. Whether intentional or not, missing items and answers like those given above appear suspicious. They may not be, but perception is key and as a paying member, we’d like to know what the Board (who represents us and makes decisions on the funds we’ve given or worked for) is doing.
Budgeting, It’s for Everyone
First, I applaud the Board Members for taking measures to control costs and request each event committee submit a budget for approval for their respective event. However, the budgeting was inconsistently applied to different events in 2009.
For example, the Spring & Fall Agility Trials are the two main money-makers for the club (most club members won’t know this because the budgeting results are incomplete or non-existent in the Meeting Minutes, although they are specifically discussed at the Board Meetings). Unfortunately, the Specialties, Tracking & Hunt Tests generally require support from the Club’s main fund.
Agility Trial Costs, What Everyone Should Know
When doing an Agility Trial, the main costs are Location, Equipment, Trial Secretarial Fees and Judging Fees. Keeping in mind that times are tough and as an active club member, last year on January 28, 2009 Dan & I secured and forwarded an equipment proposal to the Board which would have saved PSLRA over $2,400 per year over a 3 year period. We waited for weeks and did not receive a response or even an acknowledgement on the proposal.
It wasn’t until we brought the issue back up were we told that for various reasons the club would not be able to accept the proposal. No problem, so the equipment vendor mentioned in the proposal isn’t able to work at one location…but budgeting & securing the best price helps everyone, right?
Lesson Learned – Never Question The Board
Our next question was to ask why, when the committees were being asked to jump through hoops to reduce costs, why the board wasn’t working to negotiate a better equipment rate with the CURRENT vendors. After all, other clubs were already receiving substantial discounts and Dan & I would rather see our club dues go further. Wouldn’t you?
The reply from the current (soon to be former) President completely ignored the question and instead of addressing the issue, misdirected the topic to appear as a personal attack. Ugh, now why were we caring so much about money when the Board didn’t want to take the extra step? So we moved on because it was clear there wasn’t going to be a factual answer to our factual question.
2010 – Quotes from Vendors That Isn’t Happening
As part of the new procedures that were recently put through by the Board, committees are to receive quotes from various vendors. Excellent! This should hopefully allow for reduced or negotiated pricing, right?
Wrong. So far, quotes have not been solicited from multiple vendors for the agility equipment (an annual estimated cost of approximately $4,700). Nor have they solicited quotes from multiple ribbon vendors (estimated annual cost of approximately $2,600). Nor have they solicited quotes from multiple Trial Secretaries (estimated annual cost of approximately $6,200). Oh, did I mention we’re now 5 months out from the Spring Trial…time is running short.
Volunteers are Often Ignored
Budgeting issues aside, over the last several years, I’ve heard several PSLRA members volunteer for various committees, booths and other events. More often than not I’ve heard the following responses “Oh, so-and-so does that and we don’t want to step on their toes” or worse yet, there is no response from the Board or a trial committee to a person’s request to volunteer.
Our current (soon to be former) President & Board has done this to the Selthofer family on several occasions (if you’re interested, the notes on just one example are below). The first note was sent on 10/26/09, the second on 11/24/09 and the third on 12/24/09. The delay in response has since lost 4 volunteers and will now cost the club additional funds in late fees to apply to hold the Spring Agility Trial. Why does this effect you? Because that’s membership dues from 2 members down the drain.
Hiding Information, It’s Just Bad Form
We hate to bring this one up, but somethings just need to be addressed.
We were disappointed when the current President received feedback from a disgruntled former PSLRA Member (and owner of one of her dogs) regarding the Spring Agility Trial and chose NOT to share the information with the entire Board or with any members of the Spring Agility Trial Committee.
The facts are that the former PSLRA member brought an injured dog to the trial and even went into great detail with some of the Trial Committee members about “How they weren’t sure they’re dog was going to run…how it hurt it’s back previously” etc. The judge had laid an awkward line from the triple spread jump to the dog walk. Several handlers didn’t recognize the challenge and didn’t set it up properly, so their dogs weren’t able to get a straight approach and subsequently came off the obstacle prematurely. Five judges reviewed the equipment and all of them found the equipment to be safe. Additionally, this particular piece of equipment had been in storage for the last year and was last used at the previous year’s trial so there was no wear & tear on the equipment.
However, the disgruntled person took the opportunity to falsely claim that the equipment injured their perfectly healthy dog (which as we know is a stretch). In our opinion, they also took advantage of the friendship that exists with the PSLRA President.
More importantly the acting President had an obligation to the club and the Spring Trial Committee to bring any issues forward. Not sharing these items is disrespectful to the Trial Committee, undermines the efforts of volunteers and could be viewed as an abuse of a club position/power.
Lab Rescue, Where Is It?
We realize this is a personal topic of importance to us, but we rarely hear about Lab Rescue. Dan and I have both offered to host Agility Fun Runs to benefit Lab Rescue. I’ve volunteered training time to assist dogs in rescue. Again, our suggestions were ignored or written off as being not important.
Labs are the #1 registered dog in the AKC and the potential for rescue/labs needing assistance has got to be large. We belong to other clubs with less popular dogs and hear far more about their rescue efforts. Additionally, they have welcomed our suggestions and time stating that “Rescue needs all of the resources and assistance they can utilize…” I’m CERTAIN the Lab Rescue is doing something, but instead we hear more about breeder dogs needing homes.
We can’t help but ask, why isn’t PSRA a successful club with money, doing more to help rescue Labs?
Bye-Bye PSLRA
There are clubs out there that appreciate their volunteers. Maybe PSLRA does, but they’ve failed to consistently spread the good will & cheer with all. We love our Lab Friends (both human & 4-legged) and will continue to be life-long friends.
Take Care,
The Selthofers
Back-up data:
Notes ignored by President of PSLRA:
October 26, 2009
Stephanie

We just started our planning for the June 2010 Agility Trial and I heard through the grapevine that those interested in being the Chair of an event need to make a request to you.
Is this true and does it apply to events & committees that were already in place? (such as the June Agility Trial). Also, what is the reasoning?
Also, if this is true, I’m assuming that Cheri Levine, former Board Member and Trial Chair for more than 4 Agility events is acceptable?
Lisa
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November 24, 2009

 

 

 

Hey Everyone,
I haven’t received a response back on the below e-mail. If the June Agility Event is going to happen, we need to get the AKC application in asap as well as secure our location and finalize other contractual items in order to avoid late fees.
Also, it is possible the Levine’s may bow out of this year’s Trial Committee duties, at which time as the co-chair for the last 3 years, I would be taking on the role as singular Trial Chair.
Please let me know asap what, if any, new Board approvals are needed and if I have approval for the following:
  • Complete the AKC Event Application & submit to the Board for Approval & signature
  • Request a Count for left-over ribbons
  • To Secure the Trial Site (same place as last year) & request a contract for Board Approval & signature
  • To Secure the Trial Secretary (same folks as last year) & request a contract for Board Approval & signature
  • To Secure the Equipment Vendor (same company as last year) & request a contract for Board Approval & signature
  • To request a contract for Board Approval for our judges & signatures (one judge is the same as last year)
  • To request a copy of last year’s budget as well as actual expenses from our Treasurer
  • To request information from our Treasurer on the ribbon vendor (same as last year)
Thanks in advance for your attention on this.
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Sent on 12/24/09
PSLRA Board, 

Hey Folks,
I sent two notes, one on October 26th and another on November 26th offering to again volunteer for the fourth year on the June Agility Trial in 2010. Unfortunately, I did not receive any responses, which is disappointing since this is a highly intensive event and is always in need of volunteers.
Since I did not receive a response, I have since accepted an Agility judging opportunity in Maine and will not be available to assist.
I’m bringing this to your attention because I’ve heard from other members who have volunteered that they too have not received responses to their offer to volunteer. Additionally they noted that months later they then saw an e-mail or newsletter announcement requesting volunteers for the same event they expressed an interest in.
This is just an fyi and feedback on something I’ve experienced and heard others discuss. PSLRA is a great club with great people, again this is just an fyi.

 

 

It’s Taken Me Years to Publically Say…

Friday, July 31st, 2009


I’m a diabetic. Oh yeah, and I have Rheumatoid Arthritis.

Basically, these came on due to a viral infection when I was 23 years old that has forever weakened my Immune System. But this isn’t intended to be a sob-story post, so let’s just focus on me coming to terms with my Diabetes. There, I said it publicly again – heck, I might even get good at this! 

Sure, I’ve talked with select individuals about being a diabetic, but overall I have tried very hard to hide it because Diabetes has had such a negative stigma in the past. Did you know that Mary Tyler Moore has Diabetes? So does Larry King, Randy Jackson, Nicole Johnson Baker (Miss USA ’99) and the Seattle Mariners pitcher Brandon Morrow. Did you also know that most of these people hid their disease for fear it would derail their careers by giving the impression that they were damaged goods, high-maintenance or be seen as unable to keep their commitments.
In this day and age, it seems strange that people have been denied jobs, promotions, access to airplanes, treated as if they had the plague, looked at as an oddity and dumped in relationships because the other person “couldn’t handle it.” All because they were labeled ‘Diabetic’.
I remember the first time my doctor said “I’m certain you have Diabetes, but we need to run a test to confirm it.” I began to cry and quickly refused the test, explaining that if I was diagnosed with Diabetes, I could be dropped or denied future health insurance (which is true in many states). The negative stigma related to Diabetes is strong and it is still in existence.
There have been countless times that I’ve started to write about my experiences with Diabetes, but didn’t want it to come out in a ‘poor me’ kind of way. I just think it’s time I state the facts, not just for myself, but for everyone around me and for those who may be facing the same scary issue.
  • First, I am a Diabetic. I’m a Type 1 so that means I will ALWAYS be a Diabetic
  • Yes, I can have deserts & carbs, but only in moderation
  • Next, if you see my ‘pager’ it’s really my insulin pump (a medical device). If you hear a beep, it’s probably my insulin pump. If I’m pushing some buttons on it while we’re talking, please continue on, I’m not ignoring you or taking a call
  • I’m sorry (I’m apologizing in advance), but when my blood sugar is low or high, my moods aren’t my proudest moments. It’s a chemical thing in the body and I really, really can’t help it. Please don’t take these moments personally, but rather as a clue that something is going wrong in my body and I need help.
  • Oh yeah, when my blood sugar becomes too low, I have discovered that my breathing becomes very quick, shallow and labored. I become very hot & sweaty. I also become incredibly task-oriented and can no longer multi-task. As mentioned previously, I might be a bit short in our conversation. This means I need sugar NOW so please ask if I need to check my blood sugar level or just hand me some sugar.
  • If I need sugar you need to know it comes in all types of forms such as sugar packets, orange juice, regular soda, a candy bar and my favorite for traveling, gummy bears.
  • My sugar can drop quickly when I’m exercising, it’s hot out, when I eat a high carb meal (which I generally try to avoid) or for no apparent reason at all. What a pain it is!
  • Does Diabetes scare me? Of course it does. I know that statistically, the chances of me dieing at a much earlier age because of this disease is a very real future for me. I’m more susceptible to organ failure, limb amputation, blindness and much more.
  • With that said, I’m certainly not going down without a fight! I have heart, I have gumption and I work hard to focus on other things besides the negative what-could-be.
Having Diabetes is a challenge and there are days I’m just tired of it. Unfortunately, I don’t have the luxury of taking a vacation from it, although I so wish I could just have 1 week a year! But on the flip side, Diabetes has put a lot of things in perspective for me. I don’t sweat about a lot of things I used to and I feel like I live in a great place that supports a healthy diet – which is key for my daily living.
Diabetes has also shown me that my husband loves me unconditionally. He was there for the diagnosis, the 3-day hospital stay that followed and for all of the education ‘we’ have had to endure! I say ‘we’ because the first thing Dan said when I was diagnosed was “What do WE need to do…” I wouldn’t have blamed him if he would have chosen to run far, far away – it’s no secret that I wish I could have had the option to run from Diabetes!
After almost 5 years of living with this disease, the one thing that continues to surprise me is how my friends and family accept and support my Diabetes life. It started when my mother-in-law took an entire day of her personal time to come & support me at an informational Diabetes Conference. She doesn’t have Diabetes, but boy did she jump in to help me get educated that day!
More recently, I went on a long hike with some friends and with the exercise and heat, it was challenging to get my blood sugar stabilized. I had to keep stopping along the trail to bring my sugars back up and in my embarrassment, kept apologizing. My friends didn’t think it was a big deal and my husband was his usual supportive & patient self (which also meant he carried a loaded backpack full of supplies for me).
Taking that hike was a big deal to me and a bit of a milestone. I’ve read about real people who do triathlons, long distance cycling and marathons, so accomplishing my 9 mile hike (which really turned into a 12+ mile hike) was a start. Next I really want to get back to swimming, which means having my insulin pump injection patch in plain sight thanks to the swimsuit. Since being diagnosed with Diabetes, I’ve been playing it safe when it comes to physical activity, I’ve been living in fear of the sudden drop in my blood sugar and I’ve been hiding my patch. I think it’s time to move forward, get back to full living and to remember that the what-ifs are going to happen whether I’m sitting at home on the couch or climbing a mountain.
I may have a disease that requires intensive daily management, but I can still make & accomplish goals – it just takes a little extra planning and a contingency plan.
I know I’m not the only one out there with Diabetes who is trying to keep their chin up each and every day. I just hope that my story will inspire someone else to keep going, to stay engaged and most importantly, know that you’re NOT alone.
Thanks for letting me write this.